1. |
I'll Miss You, So Long
04:00
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my sleepy eyes were strained by my own reflection again
magenta stains on my shirt from last week turned a light grey
want to get out of here before my skin decays further
but then my mode of transportation seemed to be gone
just like my motivation to move, whatever I have to do
I guess I'll go change my shirt then after all
sick of feeling like I can never amount to anything
my time here is already complete
I'll miss you, so long
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2. |
Mountain
04:00
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will you take me over the snowy mountain?
and will you tell me stories about the other side?
will you stay with me when we make it there safely?
and will you tell me then if you are in love with me?
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3. |
Halfawake
03:32
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forever could I stay half awake in your bedroom?
don't let me drift away, I can't be here without you
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silent adoration, selfless, unconditional
you return me home, it hurts to let go
don't forget me, I can't forget you
on late nights, while you sleep
quietly, waiting...
you return me home, it hurts to let go
restlessness
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5. |
Memento
02:37
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against my cheek you scrape
your velvet fur
dimmed shadow
cast across the floor of my room
they all will come and go
but you aren't alive
so stare out and see me
so adorable
if you could say anything would you say that you adore me too?
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6. |
Canary Mane
03:22
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relinquished from karma's grasp
a beam that is not your own
in everlasting desperation
I wish the best
adoring your caricature
useless to fathom
soon to end it all
but still, I wish the best
now I see it
I never knew you
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7. |
Chimera
03:35
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earpiercing noises permeate my skull
anything to feel anything at all
youthful perversion without a name
blurring boundaries and short of blame
is this who I am or only what I wish to be?
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8. |
Cherish
03:59
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pleas burst from my throat
alone and down on my knees again
it hurts to let go
I hold onto feelings I don't understand
lungs collapsing, I cry "cherish me forever"
losing myself so that nothing will change
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9. |
Arowana's Scarlet
04:32
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writhing
mother naked soul case
twirling inside
a self been slain
tonight, tonight
the arowana's scarlet
standing before the mirror
surrenders self indulgence
and wishes upon...
oh sweetness and sounds
bury them and forget
with a finger stroke
painting in funereal ink
disremembering this
disremembering this
disremembering this
dismembering this
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10. |
A Confession, A Cadaver
02:15
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I thought I could
burn and blacken it until
unrecognizable
my skeleton in the attic
I thought I could bury it
beneath a bed of brier
I thought I could...
naively
you unearthed my secret
and sweetly
you took care of it
is it wrong to confess
that I loved every minute?
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11. |
Tacit
02:26
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angel
understand that
you're plenty and more
if my gazes cease
when I refuse affinity
when I fail to
shield you from hostility
for it has been my hideous fate
to let you down
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12. |
Swanskin
03:36
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lips ghostlike tremor
guts filling fluttering forewings
pale bells chime and tolling and
your skin as swanskin
hush, hush
nowhere to be
if belonging for this second
belonging to me
hush, hush
nowhere to be
if belonging for this second...
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13. |
Phantoma
03:47
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black-hearted lineage
are we rotting in solitude?
I wonder
the split between you and I
were your intentions pure
when you...
but I can't ignore
that you made me what I am
semi-sweet
pining for deathlike amity
disguising weaknesses as bravery
so I won't fear
the parts of me that aren't so
beautiful
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14. |
Endo
02:00
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sequenced like tics
compulsive lunacy
an inescapable itch for unity
but this hole in my chest is
crawling with parasitoids
gently consuming all purity
the ceaseless cycle
of sentiment and torture
entwined for our eternity
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15. |
Azure
03:28
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alone behind parapets of withered columbine
carving constellations underneath my eyes
that gleam like flooding riverbeds
to be submerged and swept up in its current
unafraid of it now
I'll let the darkness carry me as I'm sinking
are you here with me?
surrounding me
following me into my dreams
if I let the darkness carry me as I'm sinking
surrendering antipathy, are you with me?
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16. |
Squall
03:08
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whisper digital secrets
through windstorms
shelter me in bittersweetness
soaring castles in the sky
where we'll remain forever
as kindred shadows
sharing sleepless twilight
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tenderly sewn into you
a softly stinging suture (a dream of you)
hushed whimpers allure
the lapping of bloodied fur
splayed with veins like ribbons
upon swaying northwind
I find myself
stolen to your den
fearless firstborn
we find, unwavering
salvation in northwind
tenderly sewn into you
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18. |
Rhythm 0
03:03
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tell me you're sorry
this wreckage you left me with
is caving in around me (surround me)
recollections of "what I wish to be"
infected, abandoned
incongruous, archangel
wolven, rhythm zero
this wreckage you left me in...
is this who I am or only what I wished to be?
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